Submissive Secrets

[Text: I tell myself I’m alone because I don’t have time to go to munches and meet people. That the people who message me online aren’t a good match. But the truth is, I haven’t been asked on a date in 10 years. I’m afraid if I go no one will want me.]

[Text: I am afraid of asking questions or favors from anyone, having my hair cut, criticising someone, being hypocritical, someone knowing I don’t like them, silence, talking too much, losing my job, not being a good daughter, my car breaking down, talking on the telephone, giving the wrong answers to questions, giving bad advice, not being liked, attempting suicide, people seeing me the way I see me, meeting new people, zombies, losing my best (only) friend, dogs, failure being seeing as too old, too fat, too ugly to be desirable, going my whole live without ever being tied up, or loved.

(I am afraid of) Everything. All the time…except when I imagine being claimed and owned.]

Image Description: A photo of a leather collar with the word ‘bears’ written on it, with the text, “I had to pretend I was a Chihuahua to get a collar I wanted.  It was worth it.”

The collar is by Geralyn on Etsy, and the leather against my throat makes me happy every time.

unintentionally patriotic, but looking at it- that theme feels right. I would die to protect my country.

(“I feel like no one would want me as their top because I’m mentally ill. I feel so unsafe that all I want is to keep someone else safe, but that kind of desperation isn’t attractive in a dom.”)

I am so young. I feel terrible sometimes for enjoying the kind of stuff that I do. I have never had sex. But when I jack off I experiment with things that hurt me. I cut myself. I punch myself in the face. I was so excited when I raised a bruise for the first time. Blood makes my breath go shallow.

I’m not even of legal age to have sex yet. It’s confusing me how much I want “adult” stuff that is ostensibly considered even more “adult” to the point that sure, teens can have sex! Just no kink because that’s what perverted people do. According to the people in my life.

And now I feel like I’m a bit of a top as well, and the sadistic impulses I’m getting are driving me slightly nuts.

I wish there was more support for kinky teenagers.

This is the exact same set of pictures that was recently posted here from a submissive’s perspective. This one is from the dominant’s perspective. The only change is the text. It now says: “I’m a woman. When I tell people I’m dominant… I wish they’d think THIS, NOT THIS!! Stereotypes and being young sucks.” The title of the file is “reverse is also true”. Because it is.

Caption: When I tell women I’m Submissive…. I’d wish they’d think THIS….. NOT THIS.  
Stereotypes and being young suck.

 

I scratch and pinch myself, dig my fingernails into the sides of my torso… but I WANT someone else there! I want so badly… someone to push me down and shove me around, and pull my hair and make me gasp and bite me and make my eyes tear… to spank and flog me till I can’t handle it and try to squirm away and go over that tipping point of pain and discomfort into pleasure… to tie me up in scratchy rope… to tense and pull and feel the rope bite into me… to have the marks left behind by all that… I WANT IT, I WANT IT, I WANT IT and there’s nothing I can really do about it. I hate it! IT IS SO FRUSTRATING.

Image: a black woman leaning her head against the back of a white man who is touching his own face. Text: I’m not a perfect domme. I’m still figuring out how to ask for what I want, how to recognize a genuine submissive from a user, how to trust in reveling in what I want to do rather than second-guessing my partner’s desire to simply please me. Some days it simply works - and all of the agonizing, trial and error are worth my while.

I just want someone to come home to who will hurt me

[Picture, man kneeling before a woman, both are shirtless, and she has a flogger draped over his back]

I’m 19 and I want this so badly. I feel too kinky for normal dating and too young to be in the scene. 

I’m tired of being alone. I’m afraid when I finally meet someone, I’ll be too inexperienced for her to want me. 

Fanfiction is my favorite type of porn. (I’m a bi guy, by the way.)

I can find stories where BDSM and kink are things the characters ENJOY.

Seriously, what the hell is it with porn? I don’t “hate” being tied up and hit. Actually, it’s awesome.

fanart by “tabby stardust”

[Image: Photo-negative of a person with long hair and soft, typically feminine features holding their hands to their head and closing their eyes, as if in desperation. Text: I’ve spent my whole life wanting to punish someone, stamp them as mine, take away all reason an logic and ability and desire to say no…. And I spent just as long feeling like that makes me a Monster. Now I don’t know how to do it…without becoming one.]